Tuesday, 22 May 2018

2 Months To Go!

I am getting married this year on the 23rd of July which means that, as of tomorrow, I am two months away from the Big Day which, in wedding terms, is about 10 minutes....

According to my wedding planning app I'm 70% planned for the big day. A lot of the outstanding tasks relate to things like booking the honeymoon, purchasing decorations, sending a day-of list to the vendors closer to the event, buying wedding shoes.

This week I am currently focusing on the actual content of the ceremony so looking at vows, readings, ceremony wording, the bridal procession.... It's a lot. Also, no one had mentioned any kind of deadline to me, but apparently we were supposed to submit this stuff about 2 weeks ago. Oops.

So over the next day or so I'm sat at home finalising the most important part of our wedding day. Ideally, we would like four readings. Two from my side of the family and two from my fiancee's side of the family. We've found two readings so I am sat in our study just staring at our book collection in search of answers. It's just a shame we own so much horror and sci fi that is free from romance. So I will hopefully get everything picked out today and sent over to the registrar tomorrow.

After that, it's all the little decorative bits we still need to sort out. We also need to book our honeymoon and (hopefully, if all goes to plan) our hen party in Paris!

Now that we're down to the wire, I'll try to post more. Honestly, these past few months have just flown by. I have the rest of the week off and the Bank Holiday Monday next week solely for wedding planning so I'm hoping to get a lot of the important stuff out of the way this week so that in June we can book the honeymoon, focus on getting our ducks in a row and then I'm hoping to just enjoy July as I prepare myself for marriage....

Wednesday, 21 March 2018

Wedding Planning

So I am now only a few short months away from my wedding day. Do I have a dress yet? No. No I don't. Am I concerned about that? Yes, yes I am. However I thought I'd scribble a little something to continue documenting my wedding planning process and wanted to discuss the tools I've been using to plan my wedding beyond wedding specific Whatsapp groups and Facebook pages/bridal forums. Everyone always said to me that wedding planning was going to be so stressful but thus far, I've remained stress free... 


I've been carrying a notebook around with me everywhere which is now totally full of wedding budget planning and matrimonial note taking. If a thought about the wedding crosses my mind whilst I'm on the go, best to jot it down and not forget it. I also like to write notes in my 2018 Diary and allocate tasks to myself each week to ensure planning is on track and that we are making progress each week.


I've been using an app on my phone called WedHappy and so far it has been brilliant. The app takes some basic data from you starting with your wedding date and whether both parties in the marriage are wearing a suit/dress and then sets about creating tasks. It sets out basic tasks for you and spreads them out between the time you sign up and your wedding date. You can add your own tasks as well if there are any specific things you want to do for your big day. You can invite your spouse or bridal party to plan with you and everyone can access the task board. I really like that it sends you push notifications to remind you to get certain tasks done and really keeps you on track. My favourite feature is that it shows you, in percentage format, what % of your wedding is planned so with each completed task you can see/visualise how everything is falling into place.

The Knot

The Knot offers you the ability to set up your own wedding website free of charge. This allows you to create a space for FAQs for your guests, post menu choices, provide details of local hotels for your guests, share important information and guests can even use it to RSVP! It just gives people a place to visit in the run up to the big day. I've just updated mine and RSVPs are now coming in!

Friday, 9 March 2018

The B430 List

So I turned 26 last month. If you know me, or have read this blog before, you may know that I wrote up a list of things that I wanted to achieve before I was 25. Some I achieved, some I tried, some I totally didn't get around to.

I have decided to write another list. This is a list of things that I want to achieve before I'm 30. Some are going to be really big things, some little things. I really enjoyed having a list of aspirations and looking back over it years later to see how much I had actually achieved. In reflecting, I saw how much more I got around to doing. So here we go, some things that I, as a 25 year old, want to achieve in the next few years ahead of turning 30. Once I'm 30, you can bet your ass there will be a new list.

Here we go.....

  • I want to slim down and lose weight - especially before I have kids
  • I started drafting this list when I was 25, about a year ago, and then forgot about it. This bullet point stated I wanted to buy a house. Well, within a year, my partner and I actually bought our first house! So now, I guess I want to make it feel more like a home. I want to throw on some coats of paints, buy the perfect sofa and really claim this space. We're almost there already. 
  • Have a child (at least just the first one, but once I'm married)
  • Go to New Zealand

  • Get another book published - I don't mind if it's poetry, a graphic novel, fiction, non fiction. I just want to get another book out there...
  • Try veganism for a month
  • Get married... just a few months to go!
  • Try to learn how to make sushi
  • Take up bellydancing

  • Learn to drive and buy a car
  • Once I have a car - road trip. Anywhere. Doesn't matter where. I just want to go for it. 
  • I want to write and record some music and put it out there. It doesn't have to be a serious musical pursuit. I just want to put some music out into this noisy world. 
  • I want to write something for film or television - some kind of screenplay. I'm more used to writing novels or poetry. It might be nice to write something different.
  • Go to a gay pride event
  • I'd like to be an extra in a film or TV show.
  • From now on, I want to plant a tree for every year I've been alive. So, I have already planted a few trees in my lifetime, but I think this year I will try to plant 26 trees and I will plant another tree every year - perhaps it's something I will continue to do until I die. It seems a nice way to give back to the earth. 

  • Take up meditation
  • I'd like to be a voice actor in something. It seems like a really fun line of work to be in and it's a dream of mine to be the voice of a character in a Disney animated film. Even if it's not Disney, it's something I would like to achieve.
  • Study a language. Even if I pick up one I've studied before or pick up something new, either way is good.
  • Try yoga
  • Go zorbing/zorballing
  • Get a tattoo
  • I want to see baby turtles hatch. I've always wanted to see that moment. I've even considered volunteering as part of a turtle conservation project. So I'm adding it to the list. I'd love to see tiny turtles hatch and flock towards the open ocean.
  • I want to find a job I'm satisfied with that I can sink my teeth into for years to come. A job that I can be proud of when I'm talking about what I do.
  • I would like to visit at least five countries I've never been to before. Between now and then that works out to one a year, so it's absolutely possible. For example, at present, I'm already planning on New Zealand, Ireland, Denmark and Japan. If I can visit those countries then that covers four out of five new destinations. 
  • Visit Ireland
  • I want to take a trip abroad on my own. I just like the idea of vanishing for a weekend somewhere without anyone else. I've seen a lot of people say it can be a daunting prospect but a liberating experience and I've always been very independent. 
  • Visit Copenhagen
  • I want to see the Northern Lights

If I think of anything else, I will add it as I go along. I have four years to do all of this so fingers crossed I can get it done :) 

Tuesday, 6 March 2018

Say Yes To A Dress... Literally ANY DRESS

Within the last 48 hours, I have purchased two bridal magazines. One is my favourite, Rock and Roll Bride, a magazine that almost makes me wish that my wedding was ages away because I will be sad when I no longer have a reason to buy this glorious publication. The other is Unveiled which I have never read but I spotted it in my local corner shop and honestly, I only have so long left to really enjoy and indulge in all things bridal.

I am now less than five months away from my wedding, a thought which hit me like a ton of bricks when I woke up today and panic texted my mother. I live in Yorkshire. My mother lives in Essex. My sister is in Gloucestershire. Trying to get all three of us into the same room so that I can do the classic trying-on-dresses-with-your-family thing is a little bit difficult. I am now five months away from my wedding and I have yet to try on a single wedding dress. 

The fact that I've not even tried a wedding dress on seems to be a serious thing in the wedding industry. Bridal shop sales people will instantly start chirping about how you need to get your orders in now, by the time you buy you're not going to have time for fittings, blah blah blah....

Now, with about five months left to go, I've had my first twinge of concern. I'm still not even 100% set on a particular style. Whilst I'm learning more towards a laid back, boho gown there is a part of me that may be tempted to a white, A Line number. It all remains to be seen so watch this space and hopefully I won't be walking down the aisle to my partner in a dress made of stapled-together white Kleenex sheets

Saturday, 9 December 2017

Wedding Traditions I'm NOT Following...

The concept of wedding traditions can be a little odd. We so often associate weddings with big white dresses, but white dresses did not come to be heavily associated with weddings until about 1840. Prior to that, you'd wear whatever colour or garments were accessible. We so often associate
weddings with tradition, but sometimes I feel like a lot of these traditions perpetuate the idea of having to spend additional money on your wedding and that simply doesn't work for me. So below, I'm going to discuss some of the wedding traditions that my partner and I will not be following for our wedding next year.

Hiring a fancy car for the journey to the venue

Firstly, this doesn't work for us on a personal level because we will both be going to the venue with our families to get ready there on the morning of our weddings. It seems the most stress-free option. No getting into traffic! No running late! Less of a chance of something splattering on your white dress on the way to the venue! The other reason I'm not particularly fussed about it is that, typically, none of your guests see you arrive in the car. You might utilise it for some pre-ceremony photos, but other than that it's almost a glorified taxi ride.

The Garter Hunt

I don't know about you, but I have a very sweet and very Christian Granny and the idea of my partner vanishing up my skirt in front of all our wedding guests just seems a bit much. I'm not certain Granny would appreciate the spectacle... Personally, I doubt I'd even wear a garter in the first place.

Concealed with a Veil

Apparently in Ancient Greek/Roman culture, bridal veils were worn as it was thought that the veil would protect brides from evil spirits. In other cultures, it works more in arranged marriages where the veil is lifted to allow the groom a proper look at the person they're marrying. For me, my partner has been looking at my ugly mug for almost eight years. I may wear a veil, but I don't see the need for one that covers my face. Also, I'm naturally quite clumsy and a veil covering my face will probably end up with me walking into something which would somewhat ruin my dramatic walk down the aisle.

Three Course Sit Down Meal

So, I've been to weddings with the three course sit down meal. It's very formal and definitely seems to be the 'done thing' at such events. However, I have two reasons why we won't be doing this at our wedding. The first reason is that it's quite expensive to do pre-meal nibbles and canapés AND a three course meal AND wedding cake AND an evening meal/buffet for the guests AND all the champagne/cocktails/drinks in between. For us, we're going to have the canapés in place of a starter and the wedding cake in place of a dessert. Suddenly, the main meal part will simply be a main meal. Catering can be one of the most expensive parts of the day, especially if you have big families or a lot of guests in attendance - suddenly you'll see costs rise substantially. My partner and I started to get sad thinking of how we'd have to cut our guest list down simply because the price of food was going to be so high. In the end, we decided to cut costs by altering the overall meal plan thus allowing us to have more guests - the more the merrier! In the evening, we're going to be getting some food trucks to come down so guests can simply pick out their own meals and it gives people some variety. 
YOU sit on the left, YOU sit on the right.

So it was once traditional that the families of the bride and groom would sit on opposite sides of the venue. However, it is becoming more and more popular to just allow people to sit where they want. Some people have bigger families and therefore more guests. There may be family rifts where it's best to keep space between people on your big day. I personally prefer the idea that people can sit where they want. It continues the laid back vibe we want for our wedding. It also joins the two families together. After all, isn't that the point of a wedding? 

Hiring a Wedding Planner

Some people have busy lives and want to make their nuptials as smooth and stress free as possible. For me, it's OUR day. It'll be OUR decisions. It makes sense to me that we're the ones calling the shots and orchestrating the event. We are doing a lot of DIY bits for our wedding. Why should the planning be any different? I can see why some people would want a wedding planner but personally I always like to feel in control. We've only got a few months to go and our little laid back wedding doesn't feel like a wedding planner is really needed. 

The Father Giving The Daughter Away

For some, this is a really sweet and traditional moment in the ceremony known as the father 'giving away' his daughter to the person they are marrying. I know this is one that some people really like but I don't enjoy the idea of being 'given' to anyone. My parents have known my fiancée for almost 8 years now and the notion of a patriarch handing me over seems odd. Instead, my partner and I will both walk down the aisle with both of our parents either side and our siblings walking down just before us. I prefer this because both of my parents should rightly be by my side in one of the biggest moments of my life. 

The Groom

I mean, just on a personal note, mine is a groomless wedding so there's that... (My bride-to-be told me to suggest this final point. Thanks, darling) 

There may be other things that I'm personally not going to be doing, but so far, these are the ones we've put aside at this stage of our planning. Please come back in the future as I blog my way through the wedding process in the run up to our July 2018 wedding. 

Monday, 4 December 2017

How To Plan A Wedding In 8 Months...

Some little girls grow up with a real plan of what they want for their wedding day. Me? Well, I've had some vague ideas, but I don't think it's something I've ever really obsessed over. I recall thinking when I was very young, wanting the dress Satine wears in Moulin Rouge. It has always been one of my favourite films and I love the detail in the bodice fabric.

Before I met my fiancee, if you had asked me what my plans would be for my wedding, I'd have probably told you that I wanted a black and white theme. I had even considered wearing a black wedding dress. I've bookmarked a castle in Scotland with plenty of Gothic touches. I wanted to get married in the emerald wallpapered library. I would probably have gotten married around October time in the autumn. I can imagine my bridesmaids in black dresses with my childhood favourite flowers: blue roses (more to come on my obsession with dyed blue roses later...)

But I grew up. I met the love of my life. I adapted. Planning a wedding is truly a marriage of the interests of both parties within the couple. My partner is sunshine personified. My love brings out the very best in me. So when planning this wedding, actually sitting down and putting ideas onto paper, I have realised that my ideas and plans have changed entirely to accommodate us both as a couple.

As you can see in my previous blog post, I got engaged last July in Milan on our 6 year anniversary. Since then we had a lot of discussions about what we wanted in a wedding. It's only recently that we've actually set a date and started to plan. We've set the date for the 23rd of July next year. It will be on our 8th anniversary since we started dating. We always wanted to get married on our anniversary and engaged on our anniversary. It all just seems so special. But here we are in December and, as my wedding app reminds me, I have a mere 230 days until my wedding and all I've done thus far is booked the venue....

Okay, so I've done a lot of planning. I think we've planned out all the major details so far apart from our dresses (honestly, I'm still hoping to find a dress like the Moulin Rouge gown) but that may take more time. Especially as our wedding involves two brides, therefore it will involve two dresses. (By the way, we hate constantly being asked 'so are you both going to wear dresses? Does one of you have to wear a suit? If you know any same sex couples getting married, don't ask it. Just don't)

So, 230 days to go. Roughly 7 months to get our ducks in a row. Originally, I didn't see much point in planning until we had booked a venue and secured our coveted 23rd of July anniversary wedding date. However, having booked our venue this weekend, the ball is well and truly rolling! Already I have seamstresses in wedding dress shops telling me to get a move on because apparently it takes months and months to perfectly alter a wedding dress. Who knew?

I used to do a lot of writing/blogging. I even wrote a book. My partner this evening lovingly suggested that I get back into writing blogs. What I've found recently, being a member of various wedding groups online, is that I quite enjoy the community aspect of it. We're all trying to put together our perfect day and other brides to be are often such a wonderful source of inspiration. I therefore thought it would be fun to write whilst I'm going through the wedding planning process. If I'm scrolling through and reading about weddings, someone may take enjoyment in my plans too. So over these next 230 days I'm going to try and write a little bit about my plans: wedding dress shopping, how we picked our venue, traditions we're going to reject, how to stick to a wedding budget. Hopefully some other clueless bride-to-be out there will find some comfort in this as I have done scrolling other blogs. So expect some more posts to come as I throw myself fully into a world of lace and cake tier decisions......

Sunday, 23 July 2017

Our Proposal Story

For me, good things happen in Northern Italy. It's where my life began. It's where my mother and father agreed they wanted to have a child at a wedding in Bergamo. It's where I spent my 18th birthday, in the midst of Carnivale in Venice. So when my partner and I were approaching our six year anniversary, we decided to spend five days in Milan to celebrate the milestone.

The day of our actual anniversary came around, and we decided to do the most recommended tourist attraction Milan has to offer: we decided to visit the stunning Milan Cathedral and then ascend to the Duomo di Milano. Due to our budget, we went for the cheapest ticket option, which meant we could enter the cathedral and then go up to the roof, but had to go by foot rather than paying the extra few Euros to go up by elevator. Inside, the experience was breathtaking. The Gothic Cathedral, uniquely designed, took centuries to complete.

A habit I've never really been able to shake is that whenever I enter a beautiful European cathedral, I will always feel compelled to light a candle where possible inside the building and say a prayer for my worries. Though I wouldn't consider myself strictly Christian, I know it's what my mother would do and so I find myself putting wax to flame nonetheless. The experience would have felt more spiritual were it not for the sheer amount of tourists swarming in and out of the building, leaving you feeling like a fish caught in a strong tide.

Eventually we began our ascension to the roof via a rectangular tower. It was at this point I remembered that I am not only afraid of heights, but I am horribly claustrophobic. As I walked up the seemingly never-ending and windowless tower, I regretted my choice of shoes - flip flops. Not great for climbing. When we finally got to the top, I had been fighting off a panic attack which came to fruition at the top as I saw how high up I was and began panicking. I got to the point that my breathing was shaky and I involuntarily started to cry, hot tears splashing from behind my dark black aviators. It didn't really conceal much though. My Italian is pretty shaky but I heard the guy behind me say to his friend, 'Oh, that poor girl!' My partner held my hand and lead me along slowly. I began to feel that, as long as I was with her, I would never have reason to be afraid. I calmed myself as we walked from the back of the building towards the front. The views, in truth, were spectacular. You can see for miles, rooftops beneath a sapphire sky. Just when I had calmed down, I saw there were more stairs. I began to hyperventilate. I could hear two Italians behind me saying, 'oh, that poor girl!' Nonetheless, Hannah held my hand and lead me on.

There is a spot near the very top of the cathedral where you can sit upon a stone bench and look down on the open square. Everything from up high looks so small. I forced myself to look down and fully absorb the moment, fighting my fear. I mean, I hyperventilated for a few good minutes. But eventually I calmed down. If you just force yourself to look down long enough, sometimes the fear subsides. Accept the height to take in the beauty, I told myself. I had a wonderful partner at my side and, just by sitting together, I felt safer. I knew I would always feel safer with her by my side. Eventually, she coaxed me over to a balcony to the side of the cathedral.We squeezed in and looked out over the rooftop and hustle and bustle of tourists going to and fro amongst the alleyways. There was just enough room for the two of us to stand there. I decided to push my boundaries just a little. I took my arm, and held it out over the balcony, and looked down.

'There,' I said, 'that's my brave deed for the day.'

'Have you enjoyed these last six years?' Han asked me.
I said yes.
'Do you want to keep doing stuff like this?'
Again, I said yes.
She sank to one knee, raising up a box housing a ring with sapphires matching the perfect blue of the sky above. I think she said something else, but I was too busy saying yes.

'Yes, of course,' are the words that I believe escaped my lips. Suddenly my fear vanished and my all too perfect fiancee earned her new status by ensuring we got the elevator back down to the ground.